[ It's hard to breathe, suddenly, both because Sam's not willing to pull back from kissing long enough to do more than quick bursts of air through his nose and because Bucky's pressing in closer. He wants more, and there's the feedback loop again because damn Sam is more than willing to sit like this for as long as they've got, and he wants -
And then his mind skips, a moment, because he's not sure the impression he got from Bucky's mind is the right one. He doesn't stop kissing him quite yet - he's still a little too caught up in hell yes more - but his mind curls around Bucky's more purposefully, seeking.
After a moment, he stops, though he doesn't pull away, leaning his forehead against Bucky's. He wants to ask how the hell Bucky can trust him that much, but he - they know each other. There's very little of Sam that Bucky hasn't seen, very few places in his mind that he hasn't touched. He wants to say no because the thought kind of makes him sick, but he can feel where Bucky's mind is going. ]
(I won't control you like that just to make you safer.) [ He'd rather kill Bucky if he has to than use the words to make him docile, even knowing Sam'll go out with him. ] (But I - could we use it to give you permission to say no, to want things? I don't know how this shit works.)
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And then his mind skips, a moment, because he's not sure the impression he got from Bucky's mind is the right one. He doesn't stop kissing him quite yet - he's still a little too caught up in hell yes more - but his mind curls around Bucky's more purposefully, seeking.
After a moment, he stops, though he doesn't pull away, leaning his forehead against Bucky's. He wants to ask how the hell Bucky can trust him that much, but he - they know each other. There's very little of Sam that Bucky hasn't seen, very few places in his mind that he hasn't touched. He wants to say no because the thought kind of makes him sick, but he can feel where Bucky's mind is going. ]
( I won't control you like that just to make you safer. ) [ He'd rather kill Bucky if he has to than use the words to make him docile, even knowing Sam'll go out with him. ] ( But I - could we use it to give you permission to say no, to want things? I don't know how this shit works. )