[ Bucky's reaction isn't exactly surprising. Sam knows that Bucky doesn't consider himself really worthy of anything, let alone someone wanting to spend the rest of their life with him. There's something about it that twists painfully in Sam's chest, but mostly - Sam gets it. Bucky and everything that comes with him is a lot. Sam's not gonna try to pretend like it isn't, like it might not be more than enough for someone to bow out of anything like a relationship.
But Sam'd thought that about himself, too, back when he was going to the VA and once he became an Avenger. Neither of them have the kind of lives that a civilian could cope with or even understand, especially now. ]
Good thing I'm planning on living a long time, cause I figure it's gonna take me at least a few years to get you used to the idea.
[ Sam doesn't know what he's thinking. Shit like this, it doesn't come from thinking, it comes from feeling. That, that Sam knows. And it's hard to put into words, but it's - for Bucky, he wants to try. Even if he could probably get the same idea over without saying anything. Or maybe especially because of that. ]
The Soldier's already mine. That's not new, sunshine, even back on on our world I chose to sign up for it, and I'd make the same choice now. From the day the Soldier crashed into my life, I've been there to try to stop or try to help, and I always will. I'm always gonna be tied to the Soldier, and I don't regret it. I'm not gonna regret doing this.
[ Yeah, good job, Wilson. This is a great proposal, this'll definitely prove that he wants to spend the rest of his life with him. He lets out a huff of air, his wings flicking out briefly before settling over both of their shoulders. ]
I love you. I want you, and it's not despite of everything that comes with that. You and me, we know each other better than anyone, and you're worth every minute of it. That's what I want to spend the rest of my life doing, making you happy and trying to show that you're worth all this and figuring this out together.
[ But it's more than that, it's - Sam knows the exact moment that he realized he was in love with Bucky. When they lost Steve, and they fought over who the hell knows what and Sam'd been so damn scared he was gonna lose him. Loving him had been so gradual, he hadn't thought - but he does now, he knows when he was really in too deep. ]
You gave me a coin. Even before all this, before us, when you were still dealing with all of the shit in your head alone - you noticed. That I used my coin, that I might need one even though I gave it to you. You know how many people who don't have half the shit going on that you do would've thought of that? [ His wings twitch briefly, another reflection of his emotions, before smoothing out again as he shoots Bucky a smile. ] And you haven't seen the way you looked smiling at Buchanan and Thomas, back when they were chicks on Waypoint.
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But Sam'd thought that about himself, too, back when he was going to the VA and once he became an Avenger. Neither of them have the kind of lives that a civilian could cope with or even understand, especially now. ]
Good thing I'm planning on living a long time, cause I figure it's gonna take me at least a few years to get you used to the idea.
[ Sam doesn't know what he's thinking. Shit like this, it doesn't come from thinking, it comes from feeling. That, that Sam knows. And it's hard to put into words, but it's - for Bucky, he wants to try. Even if he could probably get the same idea over without saying anything. Or maybe especially because of that. ]
The Soldier's already mine. That's not new, sunshine, even back on on our world I chose to sign up for it, and I'd make the same choice now. From the day the Soldier crashed into my life, I've been there to try to stop or try to help, and I always will. I'm always gonna be tied to the Soldier, and I don't regret it. I'm not gonna regret doing this.
[ Yeah, good job, Wilson. This is a great proposal, this'll definitely prove that he wants to spend the rest of his life with him. He lets out a huff of air, his wings flicking out briefly before settling over both of their shoulders. ]
I love you. I want you, and it's not despite of everything that comes with that. You and me, we know each other better than anyone, and you're worth every minute of it. That's what I want to spend the rest of my life doing, making you happy and trying to show that you're worth all this and figuring this out together.
[ But it's more than that, it's - Sam knows the exact moment that he realized he was in love with Bucky. When they lost Steve, and they fought over who the hell knows what and Sam'd been so damn scared he was gonna lose him. Loving him had been so gradual, he hadn't thought - but he does now, he knows when he was really in too deep. ]
You gave me a coin. Even before all this, before us, when you were still dealing with all of the shit in your head alone - you noticed. That I used my coin, that I might need one even though I gave it to you. You know how many people who don't have half the shit going on that you do would've thought of that? [ His wings twitch briefly, another reflection of his emotions, before smoothing out again as he shoots Bucky a smile. ] And you haven't seen the way you looked smiling at Buchanan and Thomas, back when they were chicks on Waypoint.