[ Sam's gotta say it's almost a relief that Barnes isn't pushing him away, that what Sam's got to give is actually working. He's not fooling himself enough to believe that it's an instant fix - that any of it will be - or even that it'll work every time, but they've done pretty good so far. Whatever this connection is between them, Sam holds on tight to it, letting himself shut out anything that isn't him and Barnes and the sound of his own breathing.
And if he's got any feelings about actually being able to be a source of something good in Barnes' life, well, at least those are warm, too, and he can quietly bury them for now. ]
(Good, man, that's great. Keep up your breathing, and give me four things you can touch and feel, three things you can hear - and your thoughts don't count, it's gotta be in the room with you - two things you can smell, and one thing you can taste.)
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And if he's got any feelings about actually being able to be a source of something good in Barnes' life, well, at least those are warm, too, and he can quietly bury them for now. ]
( Good, man, that's great. Keep up your breathing, and give me four things you can touch and feel, three things you can hear - and your thoughts don't count, it's gotta be in the room with you - two things you can smell, and one thing you can taste. )