( that sam doesn't try to say anything else is immensely relieving for damon — he doesn't have the ability yet to carry on a conversation and shield at the same time, especially with sam already so deep in his head. it's one or the other, and they're here for shielding lessons, so the choice is obvious.
now that damon's more calm, knows better what he's doing, sam only gets flickers. split-second images before damon can reinforce the fog and cover them back up, pictures of caroline and ric and bonnie that disappear almost before sam can make out what they are. it's becoming easier for damon to shore up his defenses, even when sam presses — at first they would flicker, the fog thinning dangerously, but the longer sam stays and the more he pushes, the better damon gets at covering up that which he doesn't want to share.
even as he's getting better, though, some things leak through, even without his noticing. the longer sam stays, the hungrier he starts to feel. it's easy enough to ignore, at first, but it gets more insistent the longer he stays entwined in damon's thoughts. it's a strange feeling, when he finally begins to pay attention to it — a mix between hunger and thirst, his stomach empty and cramping and his throat burning for lack of liquid. he'd do anything to sate the hunger, but he has to remain in control. he knows he does, but sometimes it's harder to remember — he's so hungry. he's starving.
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now that damon's more calm, knows better what he's doing, sam only gets flickers. split-second images before damon can reinforce the fog and cover them back up, pictures of caroline and ric and bonnie that disappear almost before sam can make out what they are. it's becoming easier for damon to shore up his defenses, even when sam presses — at first they would flicker, the fog thinning dangerously, but the longer sam stays and the more he pushes, the better damon gets at covering up that which he doesn't want to share.
even as he's getting better, though, some things leak through, even without his noticing. the longer sam stays, the hungrier he starts to feel. it's easy enough to ignore, at first, but it gets more insistent the longer he stays entwined in damon's thoughts. it's a strange feeling, when he finally begins to pay attention to it — a mix between hunger and thirst, his stomach empty and cramping and his throat burning for lack of liquid. he'd do anything to sate the hunger, but he has to remain in control. he knows he does, but sometimes it's harder to remember — he's so hungry. he's starving.
was he hungry before they started this lesson? )