[ Maybe one day she'll talk with him about that. Ask him how he dealt with it, how she can try to move past that fear enough that it won't have such a vice-like grip on her soul. But that's for later, because right now she moves into that embrace and finds comfort in it while his question threatens to shred her heart into pieces. ]
(I... If I was still human, I don't know what I would want.)
[ It makes a difference, regardless of whether any of them like it. Her future was different as a human, her options in life were different, the way people thought of her... Those tears come back to blur her vision, burning hot as they escape down her cheeks, and she can't hide anything from him. ]
(But I'm not human anymore, and I-- I want to be with him. Because I know Stefan won't love me like this, he'll want to change me, and Damon doesn't. He accepts me and-- and I--)
[ She can't say it. Can't admit it to Sam or herself yet, but deep down she knows. Knows that it's there, that Sam can feel it as it permeates the churning ocean of her thoughts, that single emotion coloring absolutely everything in her. Whether it's the right choice or not doesn't matter. It is and there's no going back from it. ]
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( I... If I was still human, I don't know what I would want. )
[ It makes a difference, regardless of whether any of them like it. Her future was different as a human, her options in life were different, the way people thought of her... Those tears come back to blur her vision, burning hot as they escape down her cheeks, and she can't hide anything from him. ]
( But I'm not human anymore, and I-- I want to be with him. Because I know Stefan won't love me like this, he'll want to change me, and Damon doesn't. He accepts me and-- and I-- )
[ She can't say it. Can't admit it to Sam or herself yet, but deep down she knows. Knows that it's there, that Sam can feel it as it permeates the churning ocean of her thoughts, that single emotion coloring absolutely everything in her. Whether it's the right choice or not doesn't matter. It is and there's no going back from it. ]