(You know you're the first one I'd come to if I needed it.)
[ He loves you Damon - and also Damon is one of his best friends. Assuming it doesn't involve Damon himself, there's no one he'd rather turn to about his ridiculous love life than him.
Of course he's on Damon's side. Sam's just about always on Damon's side - and he's pretty sure the fact that Damon actually expected him to be is a pretty damn good sign. It means that Damon's starting to believe that Sam means what he says when tells him that he's not going anywhere.
He stays quiet as he listens to what Damon has to say - and it'd be easy to say that maybe Elena should get to decide whose girl she is, or that Stefan made his own choices and Damon's not responsible for them. But he gets the feeling that Damon knows that, somewhere in there, and none of that is the point.
The point is that he doesn't think he should want Elena when Stefan wants her, and that he doesn't think Elena could ever want him if she had Stefan there with her. ]
(I know what it feels like to care about you, Damon, and I know what I've gotten from her. The way she feels about you - it's not just because the one she really wants isn't here.)
❰ the implication that however sam thinks elena feels, he feels the same — it's one of those things damon doesn't know what to do with yet, so his only option is to ignore it. sam is his friend, that's not in question — not right now, anyway — so the idea of sam caring about him is one damon has slowly gotten used to, like a frog being slowly boiled in a pot of water. damon is one of sam's boytoys, and damon is used to that idea too, even amused by it — but he's never considered that sam's affection might be more than that, somehow. now that he has, it brings everything in damon's head to a crashing halt for a couple seconds before he can right it all and barrel on, flagging that as not right now.
Not just, maybe. I know I'm pretty, Sam, and I know I make her happy. But no matter what she feels for me, it's never going to hold a candle to what she feels for Stefan. He's like a fucking... a black hole of affection. He sucks it all in and no one can escape his gravitational pull.
there's a sense of warring envy and guilt and hatred and love, all of them wrestling in damon's head and heart for supremacy. the guilt wins out, though, and stefan's adamant you're not dying today rings in his head.
My brother gave up his whole life to save mine. I deserved to die, I was ready for it, and he couldn't let me. Now he's up on the station, human, in a fucking coma, and I'm here, kissing his girlfriend.
[ It's better that they ignore it, anyway - it sure as hell isn't like Sam knows what to do with it, anyway. Right now he's just writing it off as one of those things that happens when you let yourself be as close with another person as he is with Damon, mental link at all - and maybe that's another one of those things that's for future Sam to worry about.
Damon calls Stefan a black hole of affection, and maybe he is - but in the few months he was at the Station, Sam'd never felt it. The guy was all right, but he wasn't Damon. ]
(You're good for her, Damon. And she's good for you.)
[ He's not gonna argue about what Damon deserves - they have differing opinions on the subject, Sam already knows that. He'll save the 'you sure as hell don't deserve to die,' argument for later, focus on him and Elena.
On making them both happy. ]
(You know I helped him with his shields, right? I never felt more from him than bittersweet nostalgia about Elena.) [ It wasn't simple, of course, there was so much more under there that Sam never saw because he wasn't one to pry, but it hadn't felt like someone who was currently in love. ] (I'm not saying he might not be pissed, I don't know him that well - but he's not here, Damon. Does that mean Elena has to put her life on hold until he wakes up?)
❰ I'm good for her? I know you're all about building up my self-confidence or whatever bullshit, Sam, but come on.
damon can concede that maybe, possibly, he is not a bad influence on elena, necessarily. he counteracts her obsessive need to take care of other people and forces her to really think about the effect her suicidal martyrdom has on other people. but he's hardly anything that good be called good, considering all that influence comes with a large dose of somewhat-waning sociopathy.
that question, however, makes damon frown, the instinctive and decisive no filling the mental link before he's even really had time to think about it. elena puts off her life for other people so much more than is even close to healthy, and damon would never want her to do it for stefan. but still...
It means that I'm a dick for making a move when he's not here to try too. ❱
(You see her for who she is. I don't think I gotta tell you how much that can mean to someone, you know? You remind her how to have fun, you help keep her steady, try to get her to live her life the way she wants to live it. All right, so maybe you're not a good person-) [ He's not gonna fight Damon on that right now. ] (-but you and her are good together.)
[ Sam doesn't have to care about both of them to be able to see it, but the fact that he does probably doesn't hurt.
And Damon - well, Damon is Damon. It doesn't surprise Sam at all that his immediate response is no, but he still manages to focus on how he's the bad guy in this scenario. Admittedly, it's not necessarily great, but what other options are there? Both of them being miserable and trying to pretend like they're not absolutely in love with each other?
Sam doesn't want to see that for either of them. ]
(Well. You can be a dick, but - kinda sounds like she was the one making a move, man. If this is what she wants - if you're what she wants, trust her on it. Let her be happy.)
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[ He loves you Damon - and also Damon is one of his best friends. Assuming it doesn't involve Damon himself, there's no one he'd rather turn to about his ridiculous love life than him.
Of course he's on Damon's side. Sam's just about always on Damon's side - and he's pretty sure the fact that Damon actually expected him to be is a pretty damn good sign. It means that Damon's starting to believe that Sam means what he says when tells him that he's not going anywhere.
He stays quiet as he listens to what Damon has to say - and it'd be easy to say that maybe Elena should get to decide whose girl she is, or that Stefan made his own choices and Damon's not responsible for them. But he gets the feeling that Damon knows that, somewhere in there, and none of that is the point.
The point is that he doesn't think he should want Elena when Stefan wants her, and that he doesn't think Elena could ever want him if she had Stefan there with her. ]
( I know what it feels like to care about you, Damon, and I know what I've gotten from her. The way she feels about you - it's not just because the one she really wants isn't here. )
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Not just, maybe. I know I'm pretty, Sam, and I know I make her happy. But no matter what she feels for me, it's never going to hold a candle to what she feels for Stefan. He's like a fucking... a black hole of affection. He sucks it all in and no one can escape his gravitational pull.
there's a sense of warring envy and guilt and hatred and love, all of them wrestling in damon's head and heart for supremacy. the guilt wins out, though, and stefan's adamant you're not dying today rings in his head.
My brother gave up his whole life to save mine. I deserved to die, I was ready for it, and he couldn't let me. Now he's up on the station, human, in a fucking coma, and I'm here, kissing his girlfriend.
goddamn, he's a piece of shit. ❱
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Damon calls Stefan a black hole of affection, and maybe he is - but in the few months he was at the Station, Sam'd never felt it. The guy was all right, but he wasn't Damon. ]
( You're good for her, Damon. And she's good for you. )
[ He's not gonna argue about what Damon deserves - they have differing opinions on the subject, Sam already knows that. He'll save the 'you sure as hell don't deserve to die,' argument for later, focus on him and Elena.
On making them both happy. ]
( You know I helped him with his shields, right? I never felt more from him than bittersweet nostalgia about Elena. ) [ It wasn't simple, of course, there was so much more under there that Sam never saw because he wasn't one to pry, but it hadn't felt like someone who was currently in love. ] ( I'm not saying he might not be pissed, I don't know him that well - but he's not here, Damon. Does that mean Elena has to put her life on hold until he wakes up? )
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damon can concede that maybe, possibly, he is not a bad influence on elena, necessarily. he counteracts her obsessive need to take care of other people and forces her to really think about the effect her suicidal martyrdom has on other people. but he's hardly anything that good be called good, considering all that influence comes with a large dose of somewhat-waning sociopathy.
that question, however, makes damon frown, the instinctive and decisive no filling the mental link before he's even really had time to think about it. elena puts off her life for other people so much more than is even close to healthy, and damon would never want her to do it for stefan. but still...
It means that I'm a dick for making a move when he's not here to try too. ❱
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[ Sam doesn't have to care about both of them to be able to see it, but the fact that he does probably doesn't hurt.
And Damon - well, Damon is Damon. It doesn't surprise Sam at all that his immediate response is no, but he still manages to focus on how he's the bad guy in this scenario. Admittedly, it's not necessarily great, but what other options are there? Both of them being miserable and trying to pretend like they're not absolutely in love with each other?
Sam doesn't want to see that for either of them. ]
( Well. You can be a dick, but - kinda sounds like she was the one making a move, man. If this is what she wants - if you're what she wants, trust her on it. Let her be happy. )